Unquiet Mind narrative

SOCIAL CONSTRUCTION JANUARY 8, 2009

Script List
1. When I am in a manic state, I enjoy the intensity as long as there is someone to help me.

2. When the illness sets in, I relish the mania and survive the depression, then I continue as I did before. (1961 - 15 yrs old)

3. When I look to myself in the future I wee my mercurial moods then make decisions that tolerate my moods. (21 yrs)

3a (new entry) When my moods stabilize I am unfamiliar with who I now am and then I rebuid what I know about myself. (1966? - undergrad student)

3b When I go to seek help for my depression I am paralyzed with fear and shame then I wait for it to leave only long enough to regroup for its next attack. (18yrs)

3c When I am immersed in research I fit in to the world then I can cope with my changes in mood (18 yrs)

3d When I am in Scotland I enjoy the mysticism of Scotland and me then I can forget some of the previous pain I have felt (20 yrs)

3e When I am in grad school I am free of my extreme mood swings and I don’t make the connection between what I had experienced and manic-depressive illness. (23-28 yrs) 4. When my brother helps me I am somewhat protected, then I am not faced with consequences on my own.

5. When I had no control, I learned to accept that limits exist, then I learned to move within these restraints.

6. When I am in love, it is wonderful, then I lose it.

7. When I am overcome by turmoil I seek to regain control by attemtting to commit suicide so everyone's misery will end.

8. When I become restless I focus on my clinical work, then I feel successful.



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